Edgar Allan Poe (1843)
For the most wild, yet most homely narrative which I am about to pen, I neither expect nor solicit belief. Mad indeed would I be to expect it, in a case where my very senses reject their own evidence. Yet, mad am I not -- and very surely do I not dream. But to-morrow I die, and to-day I would unburthen my soul. My immediate purpose is to place before the world, plainly, succinctly, and without comment, a series of mere household events. In their consequences, these events have terrified -- have tortured -- have destroyed me. Yet I will not attempt to expound them. To me, they have presented little but Horror -- to many they will seem less terrible than barroques. Hereafter, perhaps, some intellect may be found which will reduce my phantasm to the common-place -- some intellect more calm, more logical, and far less excitable than my own, which will perceive, in the circumstances I detail with awe, nothing more than an ordinary succession of very natural causes and effects.
From my infancy I was noted for the docility and
humanity of my disposition. My tenderness of heart was even so conspicuous as
to make me the jest of my companions. I was especially fond of animals, and was
indulged by my parents with a great variety of pets. With these I spent most of
my time, and never was so happy as when feeding and caressing them. This
peculiarity of character grew with my growth, and, in my manhood, I derived
from it one of my principal sources of pleasure. To those who have cherished an
affection for a faithful and sagacious dog, I need hardly be at the
trouble of explaining the nature or the intensity of the gratification thus
derivable. There is something in the unselfish and self-sacrificing love of a
brute, which goes directly to the heart of him who has had frequent occasion to
test the paltry friendship and gossamer fidelity of mere Man.
I married early, and was happy to find in my wife
a disposition not uncongenial with my own. Observing my partiality for domestic
pets, she lost no opportunity of procuring those of the most agreeable kind. We
had birds, gold-fish, a fine dog, rabbits, a small monkey, and a cat.
This latter was a remarkably large and beautiful animal,
entirely black, and sagacious to an astonishing degree. In speaking
of his intelligence, my wife, who at heart was not a
little tinctured with superstition, made frequent allusion to the
ancient popular notion, which regarded all black cats as witches in disguise.
Not that she was ever serious upon this point -- and I mention
the matter at all for no better reason than that it happens, just now, to be
remembered.
Pluto -- this was the cat's name -- was my
favorite pet and playmate. I alone fed him, and he attended me wherever I went
about the house. It was even with difficulty that I could prevent him from
following me through the streets.
Our friendship lasted, in this manner, for several
years, during which my general temperament and character -- through the
instrumentality of the Fiend Intemperance -- had (I blush to confess
it) experienced a radical alteration for the worse. I grew, day by day, more
moody, more irritable, more regardless of the feelings of others. I suffered
myself to use intemperate language to my wife. At length, I even offered her
personal violence. My pets, of course, were made to feel the change in my
disposition. I not only neglected, but ill-used them. For Pluto, however,
I still retained sufficient regard to restrain me from maltreating him, as I
made no scruple of maltreating the rabbits, the monkey, or even the dog, when
by accident, or through affection, they came in my way. But my disease grew
upon me -- for what disease is like Alcohol ! -- and at length even Pluto,
who was now becoming old, and consequently somewhat peevish --
even Pluto began to experience the effects of my ill temper.
One night, returning home, much intoxicated, from one of
my haunts about town, I fancied that the cat avoided my presence. I seized him;
when, in his fright at my violence, he inflicted a slight wound upon my hand
with his teeth. The fury of a demon instantly possessed me. I knew myself no
longer. My original soul seemed, at once, to take its flight from my body; and
a more than fiendish malevolence, gin-nurtured, thrilled every fibre of my
frame. I took from my waistcoat-pocket a pen-knife, opened it, grasped the
poor beast by the throat, and deliberately cut one of its eyes from the socket
! I blush, I burn, I shudder, while I pen the damnable atrocity.
When reason returned with the morning -- when I had
slept off the fumes of the night's debauch -- I experienced a sentiment half of
horror, half of remorse, for the crime of which I had been guilty; but it was,
at best, a feeble and equivocal feeling, and the soul remained
untouched. I again plunged into excess, and soon drowned in wine all memory of
the deed.
In the meantime the cat slowly recovered. The socket of
the lost eye presented, it is true, a frightful appearance, but he no longer
appeared to suffer any pain. He went about the house as usual, but, as might be
expected, fled in extreme terror at my approach. I had so much of my old heart
left, as to be at first grieved by this evident dislike on the part of a
creature which had once so loved me. But this feeling soon gave place to
irritation. And then came, as if to my final and irrevocable overthrow, the
spirit of PERVERSENESS. Of this spirit philosophy takes no account. Yet I am
not more sure that my soul lives, than I am that perverseness is one of the
primitive impulses of the human heart -- one of the indivisible primary
faculties, or sentiments, which give direction to the character of Man. Who has
not, a hundred times, found himself committing a vile or a silly action, for no
other reason than because he knows he should not? Have we not a
perpetual inclination, in the teeth of our best judgment, to violate that which
is Law, merely because we understand it to be such? This spirit of
perverseness, I say, came to my final overthrow. It was this unfathomable
longing of the soul to vex itself -- to offer violence to its own nature -- to
do wrong for the wrong's sake only -- that urged me to continue and finally to
consummate the injury I had inflicted upon the unoffending brute. One morning,
in cool blood, I slipped a noose about its neck and hung it to the limb of a
tree; -- hung it with the tears streaming from my eyes, and with the bitterest
remorse at my heart; -- hung it because I knew that it had
loved me, and because I felt it had given me no reason of offence; -- hung
it because I knew that in so doing I was committing a sin -- a
deadly sin that would so jeopardize my immortal soul as to place it -- if such
a thing were possible -- even beyond the reach of the infinite mercy of the
Most Merciful and Most Terrible God.
On the night of the day on which this cruel deed was
done, I was aroused from sleep by the cry of fire. The curtains of my bed were
in flames. The whole house was blazing. It was with great difficulty that my
wife, a servant, and myself, made our escape from the conflagration. The
destruction was complete. My entire worldly wealth was swallowed up, and I
resigned myself thenceforward to despair.
I am above the weakness of seeking to establish a
sequence of cause and effect, between the disaster and the atrocity. But I am
detailing a chain of facts -- and wish not to leave even a possible link
imperfect. On the day succeeding the fire, I visited the ruins. The walls, with
one exception, had fallen in. This exception was found in a compartment wall,
not very thick, which stood about the middle of the house, and against which
had rested the head of my bed. The plastering had here, in great measure,
resisted the action of the fire -- a fact which I attributed to its having been
recently spread. About this wall a dense crowd were collected, and many persons
seemed to be examining a particular portion of it with very minute and eager
attention. The words "strange!" "singular!" and other
similar expressions, excited my curiosity. I approached and saw, as if graven
in bas relief upon the white surface, the figure of a
gigantic cat. The impression was given with an accuracy truly
marvellous. There was a rope about the animal's neck.
When I first beheld this apparition -- for I could
scarcely regard it as less -- my wonder and my terror were extreme. But at
length reflection came to my aid. The cat, I remembered, had been hung in a
garden adjacent to the house. Upon the alarm of fire, this garden had been
immediately filled by the crowd -- by some one of whom the animal must have
been cut from the tree and thrown, through an open window, into my chamber.
This had probably been done with the view of arousing me from sleep. The
falling of other walls had compressed the victim of my cruelty into the substance
of the freshly-spread plaster; the lime of which, with the flames, and the
ammonia from the carcass, had then accomplished the portraiture as I saw it.
Although I thus readily accounted to my reason, if not
altogether to my conscience, for the startling fact just detailed, it did not
the less fail to make a deep impression upon my fancy. For months I could not
rid myself of the phantasm of the cat; and, during this period, there
came back into my spirit a half-sentiment that seemed, but was not, remorse. I
went so far as to regret the loss of the animal, and to look about me, among
the vile haunts which I now habitually frequented, for another pet of the same
species, and of somewhat similar appearance, with which to supply its place.
One night as I sat, half stupified, in a den of more
than infamy, my attention was suddenly drawn to some black object, reposing
upon the head of one of the immense hogsheads of Gin, or of Rum, which
constituted the chief furniture of the apartment. I had been looking steadily
at the top of this hogshead for some minutes, and what now caused me
surprise was the fact that I had not sooner perceived the object thereupon. I
approached it, and touched it with my hand. It was a black cat -- a very large
one -- fully as large as Pluto, and closely resembling him in every
respect but one. Pluto had not a white hair upon any portion of his
body; but this cat had a large, although indefinite splotch of white, covering
nearly the whole region of the breast.
Upon my touching him, he immediately arose, purred
loudly, rubbed against my hand, and appeared delighted with my notice. This,
then, was the very creature of which I was in search. I at once offered to
purchase it of the landlord; but this person made no claim to it -- knew
nothing of it -- had never seen it before.
I continued my caresses, and, when I prepared to go
home, the animal evinced a disposition to accompany me. I permitted
it to do so; occasionally stooping and patting it as I proceeded. When it
reached the house it domesticated itself at once, and became immediately a
great favorite with my wife.
For my own part, I soon found a dislike to it arising
within me. This was just the reverse of what I had anticipated; but -- I know
not how or why it was -- its evident fondness for myself rather disgusted and
annoyed. By slow degrees, these feelings of disgust and annoyance rose into the
bitterness of hatred. I avoided the creature; a certain sense of shame, and the
remembrance of my former deed of cruelty, preventing me from physically abusing
it. I did not, for some weeks, strike, or otherwise violently ill use it; but
gradually -- very gradually -- I came to look upon it with unutterable
loathing, and to flee silently from its odious presence, as from the breath of
a pestilence.
What added, no doubt, to my hatred of the beast, was the
discovery, on the morning after I brought it home, that, like Pluto, it
also had been deprived of one of its eyes. This circumstance, however, only
endeared it to my wife, who, as I have already said, possessed, in a high
degree, that humanity of feeling which had once been my distinguishing trait,
and the source of many of my simplest and purest pleasures.
With my aversion to this cat, however, its partiality
for myself seemed to increase. It followed my footsteps with
a pertinacity which it would be difficult to make the reader
comprehend. Whenever I sat, it would crouch beneath my chair, or spring upon my
knees, covering me with its loathsome caresses. If I arose to walk it would get
between my feet and thus nearly throw me down, or, fastening its long and sharp
claws in my dress, clamber, in this manner, to my breast. At such times,
although I longed to destroy it with a blow, I was yet withheld from so doing,
partly by a memory of my former crime, but chiefly -- let me confess it at once
-- by absolute dread of the beast.
This dread was not exactly a dread of physical evil --
and yet I should be at a loss how otherwise to define it. I am almost ashamed
to own -- yes, even in this felon's cell, I am almost ashamed to own -- that
the terror and horror with which the animal inspired me, had been heightened by
one of the merest chimæras it would be possible to conceive. My wife had called
my attention, more than once, to the character of the mark of white hair, of
which I have spoken, and which constituted the sole visible difference between
the strange beast and the one I had destroyed. The reader will remember that
this mark, although large, had been originally very indefinite; but, by slow
degrees -- degrees nearly imperceptible, and which for a long time my Reason
struggled to reject as fanciful -- it had, at length, assumed a rigorous
distinctness of outline. It was now the representation of an object that I
shudder to name -- and for this, above all, I loathed, and dreaded, and would
have rid myself of the monster had I dared -- it was now, I say, the image of a
hideous -- of a ghastly thing -- of the GALLOWS ! -- oh, mournful and terrible
engine of Horror and of Crime -- of Agony and of Death !
And now was I indeed wretched beyond the wretchedness of
mere Humanity. And a brute beast -- whose fellow I had
contemptuously destroyed -- a brute beast to work out for me
-- for me a man, fashioned in the image of the High God -- so much of
insufferable wo! Alas! neither by day nor by night knew I the blessing of Rest
any more! During the former the creature left me no moment alone; and, in the
latter, I started, hourly, from dreams of unutterable fear, to find the hot
breath of the thing upon my face, and its vast weight -- an incarnate
Night-Mare that I had no power to shake off -- incumbent eternally upon my
heart !
Beneath the pressure of torments such as these, the
feeble remnant of the good within me succumbed. Evil thoughts became my sole
intimates -- the darkest and most evil of thoughts. The moodiness of my usual
temper increased to hatred of all things and of all mankind; while, from the
sudden, frequent, and ungovernable outbursts of a fury to which I now blindly
abandoned myself, my uncomplaining wife, alas! was the most usual and the most
patient of sufferers.
One day she accompanied me, upon some household errand,
into the cellar of the old building which our poverty compelled us to inhabit.
The cat followed me down the steep stairs, and, nearly throwing me headlong,
exasperated me to madness. Uplifting an axe, and forgetting, in my wrath, the
childish dread which had hitherto stayed my hand, I aimed a blow at the animal
which, of course, would have proved instantly fatal had it descended as I
wished. But this blow was arrested by the hand of my wife. Goaded, by the
interference, into a rage more than demoniacal, I withdrew my arm from her
grasp and buried the axe in her brain. She fell dead upon the spot, without a
groan.
This hideous murder accomplished, I set myself
forthwith, and with entire deliberation, to the task of concealing the body. I
knew that I could not remove it from the house, either by day or by night,
without the risk of being observed by the neighbors. Many projects entered my
mind. At one period I thought of cutting the corpse into minute fragments, and
destroying them by fire. At another, I resolved to dig a grave for it in the
floor of the cellar. Again, I deliberated about casting it in the well in the
yard -- about packing it in a box, as if merchandize, with the usual
arrangements, and so getting a porter to take it from the house. Finally I hit
upon what I considered a far better expedient than either of these. I
determined to wall it up in the cellar -- as the monks of the middle ages are
recorded to have walled up their victims.
For a purpose such as this the cellar was well adapted.
Its walls were loosely constructed, and had lately been plastered throughout
with a rough plaster, which the dampness of the atmosphere had prevented from
hardening. Moreover, in one of the walls was a projection, caused by a false
chimney, or fireplace, that had been filled up, and made to resemble the rest
of the cellar. I made no doubt that I could readily displace the bricks at this
point, insert the corpse, and wall the whole up as before, so that no eye could
detect any thing suspicious.
And in this calculation I was not deceived. By means of
a crow-bar I easily dislodged the bricks, and, having carefully deposited the
body against the inner wall, I propped it in that position, while, with little
trouble, I re-laid the whole structure as it originally stood. Having procured
mortar, sand, and hair, with every possible precaution, I prepared a plaster
which could not be distinguished from the old, and with this I very carefully
went over the new brick-work. When I had finished, I felt satisfied that all
was right. The wall did not present the slightest appearance of having been
disturbed. The rubbish on the floor was picked up with the minutest care. I
looked around triumphantly, and said to myself -- "Here at least, then, my
labor has not been in vain."
My next step was to look for the beast which had been the
cause of so much wretchedness; for I had, at length, firmly resolved to put it
to death. Had I been able to meet with it, at the moment, there could have been
no doubt of its fate; but it appeared that the crafty animal had been alarmed
at the violence of my previous anger, and forebore to present itself in my
present mood. It is impossible to describe, or to imagine, the deep, the
blissful sense of relief which the absence of the detested creature occasioned
in my bosom. It did not make its appearance during the night -- and thus for
one night at least, since its introduction into the house, I soundly and
tranquilly slept; aye, slept even with the burden of murder upon my soul!
The second and the third day passed, and still my
tormentor came not. Once again I breathed as a freeman. The monster, in terror,
had fled the premises forever! I should behold it no more! My happiness was
supreme! The guilt of my dark deed disturbed me but little. Some few inquiries
had been made, but these had been readily answered. Even a search had been
instituted -- but of course nothing was to be discovered. I looked upon my
future felicity as secured.
Upon the fourth day of the assassination, a party of the
police came, very unexpectedly, into the house, and proceeded again to make
rigorous investigation of the premises. Secure, however, in the inscrutability
of my place of concealment, I felt no embarrassment whatever. The officers bade
me accompany them in their search. They left no nook or corner unexplored. At
length, for the third or fourth time, they descended into the cellar. I
quivered not in a muscle. My heart beat calmly as that of one who slumbers in
innocence. I walked the cellar from end to end. I folded my arms upon my bosom,
and roamed easily to and fro. The police were thoroughly satisfied and prepared
to depart. The glee at my heart was too strong to be restrained. I burned to
say if but one word, by way of triumph, and to render doubly sure their
assurance of my guiltlessness.
"Gentlemen," I said at last, as the party
ascended the steps, "I delight to have allayed your suspicions. I wish you
all health, and a little more courtesy. By the bye, gentlemen, this -- this is
a very well constructed house." (In the rabid desire to say something
easily, I scarcely knew what I uttered at all.) -- "I may say an excellently well
constructed house. These walls -- are you going, gentlemen? -- these walls are
solidly put together;" and here, through the mere phrenzy of bravado, I
rapped heavily, with a cane which I held in my hand, upon that very portion of
the brick-work behind which stood the corpse of the wife of my bosom.
But may God shield and deliver me from the fangs of the
Arch-Fiend ! No sooner had the reverberation of my blows sunk into silence,
than I was answered by a voice from within the tomb! -- by a cry, at first
muffled and broken, like the sobbing of a child, and then quickly swelling into
one long, loud, and continuous scream, utterly anomalous and inhuman
-- a howl -- a wailing shriek, half of horror and half of triumph, such as
might have arisen only out of hell, conjointly from the throats of the dammed
in their agony and of the demons that exult in the damnation.
Of my own
thoughts it is folly to speak. Swooning, I staggered to the opposite wall. For
one instant the party upon the stairs remained motionless, through extremity of
terror and of awe. In the next, a dozen stout arms were toiling at the wall. It
fell bodily. The corpse, already greatly decayed and clotted with gore, stood
erect before the eyes of the spectators. Upon its head, with red extended mouth
and solitary eye of fire, sat the hideous beast whose craft had seduced me into
murder, and whose informing voice had consigned me to the hangman. I had walled
the monster up within the tomb!
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